havn't been blogging for abt a week.. not tt i really care about blogging nowadays.. hiaz.. have been busy with all the endless projects that we have to rush.. when one project's finished, another one comes along.. how nice..

bca project's completed on monday.. felt quite a sense of relieve.. at least one of the module that i dun really like(other than the poa) is already half over.. haha.. the other remaining half will be all the tests that we are suppose to take.. thought the Access that we learnt this second half of the sem is easier than Excel.. dunno leh..just find it easier to handle bah..

had that wcom graded assignment on tues.. tink it's another gonner.. the first things that i could write out were the address and stuff..but when it came to the content, god, i was stuck like dunno how long at it.. and it's like allaround me ppl are scribbling onto their rough papers..and i'm the only one who sits and stares at the paper, looking at the paper to stare back at me.. haha.. great.. then after that went down to westmall to watch constantine with han tine and lloyd.. still dun quite get it even though it's like the second time i'm watching the show.. guess it's bcoz of the christian names of the characters and i dunno who they are.. coz i dun read about them.. heex.. after that went down to the daiso at imm with han tine coz she says she wants to see if there are masks there for her cosplay.. tink she loves the shop.. haha.. but i walk until sian already.. haha.. i've been there like dunno hw many times manz.. haha.. but still, it was fun lah.. got talk a lot with her that day also.. come on,when is it that i can shut up for a whole day without talking? haha.. guess it's the day when something is bothering me, if not, my mouth never stops talking.. haha..

wednesday.. poa tutorial was suppose to start at 8am..but apparantly the tutor forgot that she had wanted to start at 8am..so she came at 9am.. haha.. and there goes my extra one hour of sleep.. haha.. but once in a while is ok..to think that i used to wake up at 5.45am for the 4 years of my secondary school life.. so that i can reach school at 7am to avoid the 7am traffic jam.. haha.. so it doesn't really matter, though i was really tired..

thursday.. another day.. but accompanied deborah during lunch time to go look for the cca in charge of the school..coz she wants to setup a kickboxing club in the school.. if the time fits, i tink i may want to join..provided i can handle my studies, do projects, and my wushu class on tues.. and also that i wouldn't tire myself out.. as i am picky on my food(less vegies and fruits, more meat), i cannot say that i have one of the stronger immune system of bodies around.. so i fall sick easily whenever i tire myself out..so have to be very careful that i can handle.. dunwan to take it and quit after not even 2 weeks.. haha.. after class ended, went down to the popular at bukit timah plaza with deborah..coz she wants to buy assessment books for her tuition kids.. and i just realised how terrible my maths can be..god.. it's primary 5 work and i dunno how to do..haha.. they say that ppl who graduate from jurong primary school will have a gd maths foundation coz their maths papers are killer papers.. but guess i'm one of the exceptions who gruduate from the school having a maths foundation that sux.. haha.. but their papers are really one of the killer papers.. i failed all the problem sum tests during primary four and i tink i only pass 2 papers in primary five.. how's that.. anyway, i've never like maths since young.. so no prizes for guessing that the module i currently dislike most is poa.. maths is my murderer.. haha..

yesterday.. had poa test.. hiaz.. this is the worse part.. i dunno if i'm gonna pass or fail the paper.. coz got some of the calculation questions i tink i may have gotten it right..but i tink i got more of my theory qns wrong.. so i'm like one of those 'hanging in the air'.. at least i wun mind knowing if i'm certainly going to pass or fail.. but even when i do the paper,i dun even know if i can pass or fail it.. sianz.. if i can pass it,i guess my guessing skills have improves.. for half of the paper, my answers were simply guesses and nothing but guesses.. coz i dunno how to do..no surprise, actually.. i din study the day before and during the 2 hours before the test,i only study the last 2 chapters when it's like we're tested on 8 chapters.. heex.. so shall await till wed during the poa tutorial then i guess i'll know how i've fareed.. heex..

that's the problem with not blogging for a long time.. the entry is super long.. haha.. will tell stories again.. dun want to type liaoz.. lazy.. haha..

love fiesta..

went down to jjc for the love fiesta ytd.. ok lah..have to say that the tings tt they're selling this year is better than last year's.. that's how i feel lah..heex..

i arrived there at ard 11.45am or 12 noon.. coz gl's shift was supposed to end at 11.30am.. but it got extended.. anyway, when i arrived there, gl was toking to beat..so i went over..then gl went back to her stall while beat took me to this stall.. it makes badges..so we took our photo and made it into a badge.. heex.. she used her coupon..so is she make for me one.. haha.. then laze around while waiting for gl..after tt went to find all those whom i got prepare the xiang si dou for..so heng wen i find them all of them hving duty..haha.. but still manage to pass it to them.. then in the afternoon regina came..and i passed one bottle to her also.. heex.. then went to the hawker center with gl to drink sugar cane juice.. coz wen we both arrive there, none of us felt like eating..haha.. so we just drank.. then went back to sch saw regina.. tot she go home le but end up she still waiting for her friends.. then i intro her to my friends.. haha.. she saw them getting dunk.. so fun..haha.. then she go home liaoz while i stayed on till the end..and guess wat i spent all my coupons on..almost all of it on balloons.. haha.. coz towards the end i still got $9 left..so i gave beat $5 to buy ice cream while i spent the rest on balloons.. heex..

after love fiesta went to ikea with gl..coz she wanted to find some beads but they have discontinued the stock.. so we went to have hotdog before going home.. heex.. she had wanted to go to queensway to look at shoes.. but bcoz late liaoz so we just went home instead.. yeah..so tt was ytd..love fiesta was ok lah..but maybe bcoz i stayed there for like half the day so i found it a bit boring.. heex.. if not,it's actually quite alright..

hey hey..

i've finally recovered almost 90% of my voice.. but still cannot sing.. people will die on the spot if thwy hear me sing now.. it's like my singing already very disastrous before i lost my voice.. it's going to sound worse now.. haha..

went to pick saga seeds with beat on wed.. but had to wait for her until around 2.30pm liddat before we can go for lunch.. coz she got ACC stuff to do.. then while waiting for her char, yin mei and siang ling came to the gate there.. coz they say wanna see me in skirt.. haha.. then they almost 'molested' me.. haha.. so fun.. so nice to see the 3 of them.. coz very long never see them le..then they so fun..very nice to play with.. haha..but i always end up getting 'bullied' by them.. haha.. and siang ling did something that really touched me.. she actually called beat to tell her to leave watever work she has and to come and pei me go out.. and she say that she'll do watever that she hasn't finished.. god, i'm so touch lor.. though i feel quite bad, but i'm really touch.. guess she doesn't read my blog, but still, thanks siang ling.. after lunch, went down to fort canning first.. but got 2 gals in front of us who pick so many lor..and the 2 of us only ended up with 3..haha.. but after that we went down to somerset mrt there.. and we got 54 there.. haha.. the 2 of us so happy sia..there, we heard from a uncle that goodwood park hotel there got a lot.. so we went down there but we only saw 8..but i let her take the 57 seeds while i take the 8..coz she needs it more than me afterall.. heex..

yesterday.. after school decided to go down there to see if i can pick anymore seeds.. went down with regina and han tine.. we went to heerens first..coz it was raining when we arrived there.. and i bought something for the 3 of them..shall give them during love fiesta.. heex.. then han tine stayed on in heerens while regina and i went to pick seeds.. went down to somerset first.. but we only got 5..then went down to goodwood park hotel.. and we,ok not we, regina saw a lot of it on the slope.. then she wearing skirt mah..so i say that i climb the slope and pick.. though i keep complaining, but i never mind climbing the slope.. bu ke neng want regina to climb in a skirt rite? haha.. but her eyesight super good sia..she like can keep seeing where the seeds are, even when some of them are partially hidden in the soil..power.. next time want to pick saga seeds have to ask her along.. haha.. then went to the toilet at far east to wash the seeds.. then went to sit down at kfc.. coz she say she want to eat then i also want a drink.. so we sit there talk.. got quite a lot of times is talk rubbish one..but the rubbish talk always i start one.. haha.. talk to her so fun..dunno why ytd i got so many rubbish to talk about.. haha..

guess i'll be going to buy jars for the seeds after school today.. love fiesta's tml.. going for it..hope it'll be fun.. heex..

sicked..

ok..i'm here blogging when i feel that i should be resting in bed.. now i've lost my voice.. great.. that always seem to be the 'aftermath' of me having a sore throat.. really sian lor.. and for now, i don't feel like talking.. coz talking's such an 'obstacle' in my current state.. haha.. so the only way i can talk now is through sms or blogging.. sian.. have to go school on mon with this kind of voice..tink i'll scare those in class siaz.. people of 4B have heard me many times with this sexy voice of mine.. so guess it doesn't really scare them.. haha.. shall go school and scare people with my sexy voice on mon.. haha..

went to my gu ma's house today.. i tink i didn't talk more than 10 sentences.. haha.. that should tell you how sian i am about myself.. and how fedup i am about myself.. hiaz.. i always have to fall sick at the wrong time.. that's really bad.. seems like no matter how much i try to take good care of myself, i'll just fall ill suddenly.. this sux.. hiaz.. been rather sad whenever i have lunch or dinner.. coz i cannot eat the food.. like today.. my gu ma cook quite a lot of good looking food.. but i told myself not to eat them.. so i ended up eating only steam fish and vegetables.. sound so unlike of me, coz i like to eat meat.. but what can i do..? hiaz.. didn't go to plaza sing with my parents.. coz i know that if i were to go out, food will become a big problem for me.. so i just came home.. sianz..

beat they all went to mr lee's house today.. hope they had a lot of fun.. i always cannot go with them.. hiaz.. me and my lonely world..

I'm feeling a sense of loneliness.. Depression..

Fen xiang..

shi jian yi zuo le xuan ze she me ren jiao zuo peng you
ou er peng tou xin qing que neng yi dian jiu tong

ying wei wo men cheng you guo li xiang lei si de sheng huo
tai duo gan shou jue fei san yan liang yu neng xing rong
ke neng you shi wo men gu lu tai duo
tai duo jue ding xu yao wo men qu xuan ze
dan xin hui fan cuo nan mian hui shou cuo
xing hao yi lu shang you ni pei wo

yu ni fen xiang de kuai le sheng guo du zi yong you
zhi jin wo ren shen shen gan dong hao you ru tong yi shan chuang
neng rang shi ye bu tong
yu ni fen xiang de kuai le sheng guo du zi yong you
zhi jin wo ren shen shen gan dong hao you ru tong yi shan men
rang shi jie bian kai kuo

To all my friends out there.. Thank you for sharing all the joy and laughters, for lending a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on when I needed someone.. The past will all form happy memories.. May the road down ahead be filled with more joys and laughters, so that the memories will contain more of the happy and wonderful times we had.. Thank you for being my friend.. Thank you..

happy chinese new year!!

it's the new year!! the angbao season!! haha.. so the new year begins.. first, may i wish all a happy and blessed new year.. heex.. ok..typing this on the second day of new year.. sian.. coz was doing some project stuff earlier.. can u believe this.. project in the midst of new year.. when enjoyment should be number one, there are tons of E learning stuff for us to complete.. oh manz.. one day, if i have the guts, i shall burn down ngee ann.. haha.. coz it destroyed my holiday.. hiaz.. if only i had money.. then i can learn from that american boy who sued his school for giving them homework during the holidays.. how's that for a change.. haha..

anyway, didn't really have a good start to the new year.. fell sick on mon.. after that poa lecture, had sore throat.. sian.. then on new year's eve,i came down with fever.. then i thought it had subsided at night.. end up the fever came back yesterday afternoon.. wah..sian.. and my nose is kindda like dunno want to have flu or not.. so it's half block and half not block.. that's bad manz.. hiaz.. and i haven't eaten any new year goodies.. miss the love letters.. and there's this whole bottle of it right at the kitchen.. and i cannot eat it.. urgh.. sick at the wrong time.. sianz..

for quite some time, my house was really crowded and noisy yesterday. coz got quite some relatives who came house visiting.. and i got angbaos!! haha.. that's the only thing that i can look forward to when i'm like down with illness at this really wrong time.. manz.. then went to my cousin's house in the afternoon.. we went down quite late..so only got a few relatives left.. but it was alright.. then my mum's third brother(aka my kaofu) played this tape that dunno who recorded about 10 years ago.. and i'm seeing my young self.. and i have to say,i look very dumb.. haha.. even one of my cousin commented that i look like sa sa liddat.. haha.. then got one part i was saying something like gong xi fa cai or something liddat to the camera.. and got another part 'interview' me sia.. haha.. so funny.. didn't know watching your younger self can bring so much laughter.. and that time i was only like around 7 years old,i tink.. coz got my sisters also.. haha.. it's really cute.. maybe next time when we have kids, we should record down what they did as a child and show it to them 10 or 20 years later.. it really shows how much one has grown.. so fun.. haha..

i still haven't bought anything for my friends for valentine's day.. this is so sian manz.. and i dunno what to buy.. had wanted to go out with beat to buy on fri.. but my mum dun allow.. coz she wants me to stay at home with my dad.. and she say if i want to go out, sunday then can.. coz my dad's going back on a morning flight.. and beat say she sunday cannot coz family day.. and i am really, very frustrated.. it's like i haven't seen her for quite some time already.. and whenever we get a chance to go out, something will just come out and block our way..and i am really fedup.. why can't i just go out for a day? shit manz.. the only ones whom i've seen recently are guan ling and siang ling.. and i just miss so many of them.. and i'm hell bend on going for the love fiesta.. it's the only time for me to at least see them.. coz i tink some of them are setting up stalls.. this is super sian.. and i tink i cannot go out with beat for the time being again.. this is really frustrating.. unless she can go out on sunday, if not, i don't think i'll be going out with her anytime soon.. i also don't want to keep pressing her to go out with me.. she has sam, her family, and other friends.. maybe not going out with her might give her more time for other stuff.. maybe i should just live in my own world.. again..

or perhaps, one just should not ask too much of another..

one down, two more to go..

had a rather packed weekend.. study a bit of econs on sat before helping my mum do spring cleaning.. i cleaned half of the kitchen.. coz the other half my mum clean liaoz.. heex.. and i actually cleaned the same area for like one hour and 15 minutes.. haha.. coz i clean the stove area there mah.. then got a lot of oil.. so i clean very long.. haha.. then my mum was saying that if i happen to be in the cleaning service, the company that hires me will have a huge loss.. coz i take very long to clean.. then the company will really lose big if they're paying me on a per hour basis.. haha.. then went down to imm for dinner.. so.. yeah.. tt's all..

sunday.. didn't really study much for poa.. went down to bugis junction during the late afternoon.. shopping.. and.. guess what.. i bought a skirt.. haha.. those demin one.. heex.. must announce to the whole world.. haha.. no lah.. still thinking wen should i wear the skirt.. haha.. then wen we going home that time, we waited for 45 mins and there was still no taxi for us.. so my mum ended up calling a cab.. haha.. so tt's my sun..

ytd.. took the poa paper.. oh manz.. dunno what to say.. haha.. actually, the paper was quite ok.. but i seriously got no confidence in my answers.. wen was it that i had confidence in any of the subjects that are related to maths? hiaz.. but i think i can pass.. to score.. that i dunno.. coz i dunno the ans mah.. heex.. so one paper down, two more to go.. have to buck up.. heex..