have not been blogging for quite some time.. had to prepare for the exams lah.. and now, i am glad to announce that it's finally over!! haha.. it was over ytd lah.. but no time to blog ytd so today then announce.. haha..

exams, exams.. hiaz.. things that we as students have to face with every year.. so boring.. but.. oh well.. a routine that we have to face.. so no point complaining.. haha.. this semester the exams.. dunno what to say.. like very 'oh my god' those kind of paper.. every paper seems to have some parts that are bound to screw up.. econs, it's money and spore economy.. bmgt, it's the whole paper.. this one's the worst.. haha.. poa.. the theory qns.. and maybe bank recon.. aiya, dunno lah.. anyway, it's over.. and i'm now enjoying myself having been studying for the past week.. working hard not because i'm hardwroking, but because i started late on my revision.. haha.. so i'm just a lazy bum.. heex..

now after exams, think might go job hunting.. but like everytime i also cannot get a job one liddat.. haha.. but i may end up not getting a job after all.. why? coz i'm a lazy bum.. haha.. so.. hmz.. depends lah.. see first.. haha..

okie.. shall blog until here.. nothing to talk about when i've been facing nothing but textbooks for the whole week.. will blog again soon.. heex..

one week of the school calendar holidays passed just like that.. and my grandma's back from her china trip.. she seem to have enjoyed the trip a lot, though she say that it was really cold there.. great..

went for the food fair at suntec twice.. haha.. went on fri with beat and on sat with my parents.. can't believe that there are such big crowds in spore.. the fri one was ok.. not too many people.. but the sat one was kindda scary.. imagine the convention center all filled with people.. wow.. but there are so many fairs holding there at one go.. so the crowd can be expected.. and i got my bag from bugis on fri.. heex.. so happy now.. heex..

hiaz.. have not started revision for the exams yet.. and there's a hands on test for bca tml.. shit.. have to start later.. i always end up playing whenever i say that.. heex.. but, oh well, if i don't start studying, i'll flop.. not an option for me.. so.. study..

i don't know if this entry will offend anyone.. but i just want to type it out somewhere.. to vent out what i have been feeling and thinking about myself..

felt that i have not been understanding enough.. that i keep demanding for what i want without thinking about how others might feel.. my sensitivity towards others just seem to have dropped or something.. i don't know.. what has finally triggered me to this wake up call or thought? a chat with beat 2 days ago..

i was asking her when will we be watching "a series of unfortunate events" together.. and she said on friday.. but she said that she has to go back to school for her cca stuff.. to paint banner for some particular event.. then i ask her if she could roughly set a time so that maybe i can get an idea of what time slot are we catching for the movie.. then she said,"i don't want to tell you a time and then after that i go back on my word and make you angry again over ACC stuff." wow,what a bomb.. a wake up bomb..

what had happened then? well, there was this day when we were suppose to go out,i guess.. and suddenly she told me that she has ACC matters to attend to and may be late or something.. and i just blew, with the angry thought of why is it that everytime when i'm going out with her, there will always be ACC matters popping out of nowhere.. and i complained like dunno what to practically every person around.. of course, i guess this blow out of mine has caused some unhappiness.. hope that she has accepted the apology i gave her..

and now that i think back, it was very childish thinking of mine.. and very insensitive as well.. why is it that i have those kind of thinking, those insensitive thoughts? i don't know.. and this time, her words just keep ringing in my head.. just keep reminding me of my mistake and to change.. and what's the next worse thing about tommorow's trip? she told us on monday that she will be going out for the whole of this week and she does not have much time to study or dunno do what.. cannot remember.. and i'm still going out with her tommorow.. somehow i just feel like cancelling the trip so that she can rest,but will she agree? now, there is this hurt.. this hurt that cannot be describe by words.. or is it guilt? i don't know.. i feel as if i had just caused her to be more tired, to simply go with what i say.. what i want.. why have i become like that? so childish, so insensitive..

maybe it's time for me to grow up.. to learn how to treat people better.. to know how to deal things better.. to understand people more.. to just be more understanding.. be more understanding.. who can help me? help me to get rid of this guilt, this hurt that i have brought upon myself, and move on..? who..?

left my blog here to rot for more than a week before posting now.. heex..

had a great sunday and monday that had just passed. went down to bugis to get beat's present on sunday with guan ling. and as usual, we end up shopping for ourselves. haha. and i saw a sling bag that i like. going to get it this friday, perhaps. and it's the same bag that gl bought. ok, we have the same taste for things, i guess. great minds think alike! (yes, i'm praising myself) anyway, we got this paperclip for her. hope that she'll like it. and today's her birthday.. i know that she don't read my blog nowadays, but still, happy birthday beat..

on monday, went to k box with char, gl and beat. it was so fun. haha. and i'm now known as "penguin 4". it came about after a lame joke that beat pass around. haha. but i cannot really remember the joke. it's just super lame. and just now,beat suggested that i shouldn't be "penguin 4". i should be "kiguin". coz it's a combination of "kiwi" and "penguin". haha. so now i have like 3 nicknames? haha. anyway, this k box trip is one of the more fun ones. not that last time it's not fun, but this time it's really fun. haha. i purposely don't want to look at chariene when the two of us were singing the song "in love with you". haha. we're suppose to be a 'couple' you see. haha. and we sang that song thrice. haha. and no k box trip is complete without the song "xuan zhe". haha. me and char's classic song. a pity that gl had to leave early. coz she have tuition. but it's a great day..

that day after k box, we went for dinner at a nearby coffeeshop. then me and beat went to imm to look at a blouse while char went home first. after that, beat walk me home wor.. first time sia. everytime is i walk her home one. haha. so touched.. haha. but we talked a lot lah.. i also cannot remember what we talk about. but have the feeling that i didn't talk to her for a very long time when it's like i just called her dunno a few days ago or something liddat. nowadays, i don't really think that much about the days in fuhua, though i'll still think about them. guess i've decided to move on..

the exams are coming soon. just cannot believe it. i can still roughly remember the day we started the orientation. and now, year 1 on poly is coming to an end. time really flies. and i know that i'll really have to work hard for this final exam. all for the sake of going to university. if i didn't remember wrongly, i had a pack with beat that i'll see her in university. hope that i can do just as well for this semester. i seriously have to continue the good run of results semster after semester if i were to stand any chance of going uni. so.. going to start studying later.. have to start the ball rolling..

guess i can have a weekly blog soon.. haha.. this week arh.. like nothing happen liddat leh..or izzit i have been so busy with projects that i simply forgot what happened? eh..let me recall a bit.. haha..

mon.. was 28th feb hor..yeah.. haha.. tt day got econs test 2..then after lunch one whole group of us went to the library to study.. me, clement, lloyd and deborah in a group.. then regina and zhi wei study outside.. but say is study lah..the moment the laptop is out arh, no one will study.. haha..we end up exchanging songs with each other.. haha.. then later han tine came and join us after she visited the doc..coz of her eyes.. but i tink her eyes now should be ok le lah.. then tt day also the release of 'O' level results.. yin mei had to retake her english and she got a B4 this time.. feel so happy for her.. heex.. anyway,the test was ok..i can do it.. haha.. was quite surprise at the qns that they set..coz i had expected a much more tougher paper.. but can do and whether the answer is correct is two different things.. haha..i know the last qn i wrong liaoz..but i tink i can get half of the marks for the qn bah.. hope.. heex..

tues.. like nothing happen leh.. oh no..gt something funny happen.. coz usually i will walk down one stop after the shell bus stop to take bus mah..then on the way down will pass by regina's house.. so happen that day her house there got 2 lifts kindda like not working, i tink.. then she press the button they don't come down mah.. then finally one of it come down.. then she scared the lift jam so i take with her.. haha.. so funny sia..then when i go down is my turn to scared the lift jam.. haha.. funny time..

wed.. went down to westmall after class to watch howl's moving castle with lloyd, han tine and regina.. then greg also went with us..coz he wants to play the arcade.. best liaoz.. specially go there for the arcade.. haha.. hmz.. thought the movie was nice.. i like calcifer.. he's so cute!! haha.. i have a liking towards cute stuff.. haha.. calcifer's a little fire ball that keeps the castle moving.. so fun rite? haha.. and he's so cute!! i love that ting!! haha.. ok,better get a hold on myself before i go crazy.. heex.. that day also quite fun lah..the arcade is the most fun part.. haha.. and i tink my shooting skills are like super jia lat..i see greg play the time crisis he like very easy go up to the last level liao leh..then i keep kenna shoot by the 'bad guys' in the game.. then level one also hvnt finish die liaoz.. haha.. must save more money then go there play more.. haha..

thurs.. went to school earlier in the morning to do bmgt project.. i tink i have this wierd thing of not liking to be late..so i'll be super early.. i arrived at 9.45am when we agreed to meet at 10am.. then all of them late.. so i sit alone in the room.. haha..so funny.. the room so big then only got me inside.. haha.. then do liaoz went for lunch before going for econs tutorial.. didn't expect remy(our econs tutor) to really get us to do the presentation for the tutorial qns.. then he say can do in a group or as individual.. then me, shi shi, han tine and regina do together.. then regina beat sia..her powerpoint skills power lor.. she actually finished a powerpoint within like.. eh.. 10 to 15 minutes..? around there lah..so li hai.. pei fu,pei fu.. haha.. da jie ju shi da jie.. haha..

fri..which is ytd..heex.. went to sch for CATS.. then 'A' level results release ytd.. i tink those gals at jjc are one of the last in spore to get their results sia.. they only got it at like 3.30pm.. tt time dunno how many ppl from other jcs are out celebrating liaoz.. haha.. gl got an A2.. so good.. haha.. then i pull her to jp.. celebration.. haha.. also bcoz got the feeling like long time never see her liaoz.. but come to think of it,i only never see her for 2 weeks.. coz the last time i saw her was during love fiesta.. haha.. then we went to eat at mac b4 walking around.. then go home liaoz.. heex..

ok..blogging once a week is liddat.. super long story.. espeacially for ppl like me who are so naggy.. so exceptionally long.. haha..