drained..

went for wushu performance yesterday.. we were performing for the mde idol.. man, it sux.. i lost balance twice while doing the first pattern.. didn't fall in the stage, but manage to catch hold of myself by supporting with my hands.. the kick wasn't any better.. couldn't coordinate with christine at all.. the last pattern was alright.. the crowd sux.. they do.. the moment we started running out onto stage, the people started laughing.. seriously, none of us understood what they were laughing at.. and more laughters came when we started doing the kicks.. those playing the weapons were ok.. though some of them were treated with laughters too.. the crowd just suck.. what's so funny about it? is it so funny to be practising this kind of art? sux..

nothing seemed to have gone right for me yesterday.. was in a really foul mood yesterday.. maybe was because i didn't sleep enough bah.. then had some disagreement for the wcom project.. and we've not even started our interview yet.. this is gonna be dead manz.. the report's due in 2 weeks time.. have to rush all the stuff next week.. no more rest time again.. feel real damn suffocated.. its as though everything's piled up on you and suddenly, there's so much to be done.. can't really take it.. projects, projects, and more projects.. and not that it's been going fine.. its not fine at all.. dun wish to talk about it.. things just suck..

wasn't in a better mood today either.. feeling really tired.. and i lost my appetite for food.. but i still had a plate of rice in the end.. guess i'll have to sleep earlier tonight, or i'm gonna fall sick.. i'm always like that.. falling ill coz i'm too exhausted.. or maybe i'm just stressing myself too much.. my favourite 'hobby'.. sometimes, things just seem to be able to be done so easily but i'll still get so stressed up.. is it stress that's piling up on me, or is there really too much work to be done, or am i simply just exhausted? i dunno.. went to play arcade at westmall alone after school.. played $10 worth.. guess that's the way i let myself out whenever i feel bothered or stressed.. i have no mood for anything at all.. nothing at all.. i don't want to study.. i'm tired.. drained..



Many times when you feel that you badly need someone.. And the many people whom you call are not there.. How would you feel? Lonely, out of placed, or something esle? Many times the fact that all are not there by you make you feel as though you're left alone on this world.. Who's there for you and who's not.. The many times things have happened..

Loneliness knows me by name..